Revisiting my blog

 So, there is just one post from October 2021. Not bad. 


What is however bad is that I have the exact same feelings even today. I have made absolutely no progress on myself. I am still recovering to get back into that zone that I had wanted to get into in October. It is quite sad, honestly that in the last 7 to 8 months, I have made absolutely no progress whatsoever. I would like to change that.

The reason I visited this blog today again was to start doing something about it. I will try to write every day. Even if it is just a couple of lines. This practice has helped me before in school and I am really hoping it will get me out of this awful funk I have been in for the past year. 

Let's hope it does. 


xoxo

AK

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