Stalled career and staller life
I have been feeling depressed for a while. I am a person who gets confidence from the quality of work I put out. Recently, I have just not been interested in this. Its not like a switch flipped and I don't care. I have been going down this rabbithole for a while now. I think it started with people's lack of confidence in me for managerial-related things and it has snowballed into me not being able to get even smaller tasks completed with good quality that I can be proud of. Its mostly ticking of checkbox of things that I am doing - not quality work. May be this was always true and it has started to become apparent now because there are people who can do a better job. Its not like I don't know how to do them and what will create quality content. I just don't want to. I am lazy and decide against putting in effort. I just want to watch content and while away my time. I tell my husband that I want to be a kept woman now. He probably thinks it's a joke. But it's no